Brother Juniper answered” When I feel the approach of a diabolical suggestions, I run at once and shut the door of my heart, and to secure its safety, I occupy myself in holy desires and devout meditations; so that when the suggestions comes and knocks at the dorr of my heart, I may answer from within ‘begone; from the room is already taken, and there is no space for another guest.”
( Little flower of St. Francis, Story of Brother Juniper, Chapter VII)
We are often tempted by many worldly things, for me it is the anxiety of finding a job and deciding what I need to do for my the future. The anxiety and frustration make me unable to pray, make me unable to do anything else, except keep feeling depressed. I even sometimes really could hear the “diabolical voice” about “giving up faith”. This reading reminds me first ” I have not occupy myself with the holy desires” instead I am full of the worldly desire (such as a comfortable life..a good life.. something like that)
1 After reading the stories of St. Francis for a while, it make even admire a prayerful life exclusive for God more and more. I know for sure (may be?) I am not designed to live in a monastic life, but I for sure! need to do the work of God, not matter what it might be…Therefore, I think I ‘d better begin to work hard to resist the temptation.
) Empty myself….( When I feel frustrated again.. Go to pray.. When Diabolic idea disturbe me from prayer, while I guess, I should pray more??)
2) shut door for worldly temptation . (I guess I should focus more on what I want to accomplish for my life..and go step by step)
3) Occupy myself with holy desire and devout meditation.